i was always embarrassed when i was a dub--and would never mention it in conversation with " worldly" people if i could possibly avoid it. for many years after i quit i avoided the whole subject.
but i think this was because i thought the cult was highly significant to most people----but more recently ive realised--it isnt. most people know very little about it--or are mildly curious.
so now---nothing to be embarrassed about--it means nothing to me--and nothing to most people i'm ever likely to have any contact with.